A channeling Session

A Channeling Session
As It Occurred

Big Ryan D: hi there thomasina, i sent u mail today :) how are u doing?
Cyberthomi: i just wrote you
Cyberthomi: or wait...
Cyberthomi: no, i just looked at your pic
Cyberthomi: you're cute
Cyberthomi: more of a man now, huh?
Big Ryan D: well thanks so are u!
Cyberthomi: thanks
Big Ryan D: yeah well thats a little boy picture
Cyberthomi: i see
Cyberthomi: where are the new ones?
Big Ryan D: i dont have any other pics of myself!
Cyberthomi: i see
Big Ryan D: so how old are you?
Cyberthomi: eternal... and you?
Big Ryan D: oh the same, but i was born 24 years or so ago
Cyberthomi: last time i was born was 28 yrs ago
Big Ryan D: oh, ok...so no significant other? you must imtimidate alot of guys i guess?!?

Cyberthomi: perhaps that is the case, i'm not sure
Cyberthomi: people tell me so
Big Ryan D: oh well too bad for them, you know after i saw u it took me two weeks to finally get into your website to get your address? talk about dedication...so....
Cyberthomi: thanks
Cyberthomi: yes... my site has been busy
Big Ryan D: yeah it seems so, well im sure you wont have a problem with finding anyone now, u getting flooded with offers?
Cyberthomi: there are always offers
Cyberthomi: it is not about that
Cyberthomi: its about quality
Cyberthomi: and comfort
Cyberthomi: identification
Cyberthomi: with the other
Big Ryan D: oh i see and how do you personally find that?
Cyberthomi: with my senses
Big Ryan D: oh can u sense me?
Cyberthomi: sure
Big Ryan D: and what do u sense dear?
Cyberthomi: i do not know if i have enough time
Cyberthomi: you are clean, you are quiet,
Cyberthomi: you are semi skeptical
Cyberthomi: but you'd love to be proven otherwise
Cyberthomi: you have a big heart
Cyberthomi: but you haven't shared it a lot
Cyberthomi: you have most probably been true
Big Ryan D: good, yes (very quiet) yup (boy your good) and yes id like to
Cyberthomi: and loyal in your relationships
Cyberthomi: is this the type of thing you would like me to sense?
Cyberthomi: or would you like me to focus elsewhere
Cyberthomi: i have a few moments before i must work again
Big Ryan D: sure whatever u want, its pretty amazing
Cyberthomi: your mom is important to you
Cyberthomi: very
Cyberthomi: you miss her
Cyberthomi: in some way
Cyberthomi: a lot
Cyberthomi: hmmm a brother?
Cyberthomi: not sure on that one
Big Ryan D: yup 2 of them
Cyberthomi: kind of an alone kid, you were
Cyberthomi: even though there was family
Cyberthomi: you felt alone
Big Ryan D: yup very, still do
Cyberthomi: this is part of your quitenesss
Cyberthomi: hmmmm
Cyberthomi: what else?
Cyberthomi: you in a basement?
Big Ryan D: you got the mom thing right, i do miss her (nope) she died about a year ago
Cyberthomi: yes. that is what i thought, about your mom
Cyberthomi: i feel you miss her that way
Cyberthomi: now you are wondering if i can talk to her
Big Ryan D: yeah :( can u?
Cyberthomi: does that excite you? you would want to say thing
Cyberthomi: let me see... i feel someone here now
Big Ryan D: yeah i would
Cyberthomi: i can only do what i can do
Cyberthomi: but if you'd like to speak, i'm supposed to let you
Cyberthomi: yes.... they are here now... spirits
Cyberthomi: let me know
Cyberthomi: you ache
Cyberthomi: your mother knows your ache
Big Ryan D: k...im kinda scared to say anything (yes i do)
Cyberthomi: its like in your stomach
Cyberthomi: your gut
Cyberthomi: you don't look up to the sky enough, she says
Big Ryan D: yup, my heart, my throat
Cyberthomi: she wants to pick your head up when you hang it
Cyberthomi: lift your chin
Cyberthomi: there was something very strange to you
Cyberthomi: some unspoken things...
Cyberthomi: about your father, or absense there of?
Cyberthomi: what is it... tell me
Big Ryan D: yeah were just plutonic, my mom basically raised me, than she died
Cyberthomi: did you somehow hold that
Cyberthomi: there was something about that
Cyberthomi: you wished you had one around more.. a dad
Cyberthomi: you wanted a dad
Cyberthomi: she knows
Cyberthomi: wishes she could have
Cyberthomi: loved you
Cyberthomi: loves you
Cyberthomi: with everthing
Big Ryan D: im not sure, unfortunately ive never talked to anyone about it (thank you)
Cyberthomi: you didn't talk with her either
Cyberthomi: never to the extent you wanted
Cyberthomi: but she knows that
Cyberthomi: she knows everthing now
Cyberthomi: and she just couldn't then
Cyberthomi: it wasn't for her to have someone
Cyberthomi: not this time
Cyberthomi: she will have others
Cyberthomi: other lifetimes
Cyberthomi: and she will love
Big Ryan D: is she happy?
Cyberthomi: she will love like you always wanted to see her loved
Cyberthomi: she is
Cyberthomi: but she is reaching to you now
Cyberthomi: because you are sad, you call her back
Cyberthomi: and she will come back... as you are sad
Cyberthomi: but you don't have to be sad son
Big Ryan D: what should i do?
Cyberthomi: you should look to the light
Cyberthomi: it is there that i am
Cyberthomi: i am within you
Cyberthomi: you remember me petting your head?
Cyberthomi: the comfort there
Cyberthomi: find it there again.. in you
Cyberthomi: know that i am out there, that i am here
Cyberthomi: and you can be with me
Cyberthomi: just think of me
Cyberthomi: and i will be there
Cyberthomi: its that easy
Cyberthomi: you must believe
Cyberthomi: i know you did not find the spirituality you wanted in the christian ways
Cyberthomi: and i did not know
Cyberthomi: but know i do
Cyberthomi: and it is beautiful
Cyberthomi: i can hear you when you think of me
Cyberthomi: and you're sad because you feel seperated
Cyberthomi: but you have to believe that you are not
Cyberthomi: you are not
Cyberthomi: WE are not
Cyberthomi: it IS all one
Cyberthomi: i love you
Cyberthomi: love... it is the greatest thing
Cyberthomi: i am still here
Big Ryan D: im trying not to cry in front of my roomate
Cyberthomi: she's ok... this girl thomasina
Cyberthomi: letting me channel
Cyberthomi: i want to say chris
Cyberthomi: do not know chris
Big Ryan D: yes thats him
Cyberthomi: yes
Cyberthomi: this is mom
Cyberthomi: hi
Cyberthomi: i love you
Big Ryan D: hi i love u too
Cyberthomi: your heart is beating
Cyberthomi: so hard
Cyberthomi: you must breath
Cyberthomi: breathing can take your sorrow awayq
Big Ryan D: sometimes its so hard, so cold and alone
Cyberthomi: it is again...you 'percieved' seperation
Cyberthomi: you are not disconnected
Cyberthomi: you must beleive that
Cyberthomi: the teach you that you are.. in church
Cyberthomi: it is not true
Cyberthomi: it is all here
Cyberthomi: it is all perfect
Cyberthomi: we live the lives we do for reasons
Cyberthomi: and then we live again
Cyberthomi: my love was here
Cyberthomi: and i could not be with him
Cyberthomi: when i was alive
Cyberthomi: so i stayed alone
Cyberthomi: you learned that from me
Cyberthomi: i wish i could un do it
Cyberthomi: you deserve love
Cyberthomi: and light
Cyberthomi: and happiness
Cyberthomi: it is for you
Cyberthomi: just look to it
Cyberthomi: you have me here a bit more
Big Ryan D: i miss u
Cyberthomi: but channels do not stay
Cyberthomi: i know
Cyberthomi: i know youdo
Cyberthomi: let me see
Cyberthomi: what could i tell you
Cyberthomi: to bring light into your heart
Cyberthomi: when you get sad....
Cyberthomi: i know you know i'm now ok...
Cyberthomi: and that should be good... but there should be something else
Cyberthomi: a little thing you can think of when you are down
Cyberthomi: i want to say a puppy
Cyberthomi: like when you got one
Cyberthomi: that day
Cyberthomi: was happy?
Big Ryan D: yes
Cyberthomi: remember that day
Cyberthomi: how it felt
Cyberthomi: when you are feeling down... and the lowest
Cyberthomi: recognize that is is an emotion
Cyberthomi: feel it... then let it go
Big Ryan D: ok, i still have the puppy he misses u too
Cyberthomi: oh yes
Cyberthomi: rupert???????
Cyberthomi: no idea.... names are strange
Cyberthomi: thomasina stumbles on names
Cyberthomi: how are you?
Big Ryan D: no napoleon he was there the night they found her,(you) but he was ok
Big Ryan D: sad, lonely
Cyberthomi: i see
Cyberthomi: hmmm
Cyberthomi: yes... this was a sad passing
Cyberthomi: hmmmm
Big Ryan D: its a loneliness that cant be easily filled, i search everyday
Cyberthomi: ah....
Cyberthomi: do not search without....
Cyberthomi: you must go within
Cyberthomi: but this time when you go in
Cyberthomi: bring the light with you
Cyberthomi: we must carry then light into the darkness
Cyberthomi: to spred it
Cyberthomi: to shed light
Cyberthomi: son... i have to go now
Cyberthomi: i'm sorry
Cyberthomi: i am sorry
Big Ryan D: im sorry im so quiet...i miss u,
Cyberthomi: and you can call on me any time
Cyberthomi: you can do it in your mind
Cyberthomi: i will try to be strong for you
Cyberthomi: to come through in ways you understand
Cyberthomi: so that you know it is me with you
Cyberthomi: i will even be with you for a while now... for i am to watch you
Cyberthomi: it is how we learn to progress
Cyberthomi: here
Cyberthomi: on this plane
Cyberthomi: it is just a plane beyond you
Cyberthomi: but i am still here
Cyberthomi: trust me
Cyberthomi: if you can
Cyberthomi: i love you honey
Big Ryan D: i hope your not sad anymore
Cyberthomi: it is part of my watching you
Cyberthomi: i have made mistakes
Cyberthomi: but we do not understand everything when we are alive (in a body)
Cyberthomi: it was my thing....
Cyberthomi: i wish you wouldn't carry it
Cyberthomi: i never should have taught you that
Cyberthomi: i know
Cyberthomi: thank you
Cyberthomi: i loved being your mother
Cyberthomi: we did good
Cyberthomi: we can still do goo
Cyberthomi: good
Cyberthomi: keep your chin up
Cyberthomi: ok?
Big Ryan D: you are the best, u taught me to be strong...ok
Cyberthomi: and i will kiss your cheek
Cyberthomi: maybe you will feel it one day... on the right side
Cyberthomi: when you have lifted your head
Cyberthomi: from a stuppor
Cyberthomi: into the light
Cyberthomi: i will kiss your cheek
Cyberthomi: be good son
Big Ryan D: i will, i do things for you so u can see me and be proud
Cyberthomi: yes.... my angel... MORE proud
Cyberthomi: as i already am
Cyberthomi: be good
Cyberthomi: and take care
Big Ryan D: ok bye, i love u
Cyberthomi: kiss napoleon fo rme too
Cyberthomi: ok
Big Ryan D: i will
Big Ryan D: thomasina?
Cyberthomi: wow
Cyberthomi: ha
Cyberthomi: you think im crazy dont you
Cyberthomi: that was amazing
Cyberthomi: wow
Big Ryan D: i just hope your not messing with me, im seriously crying, that was really hard
Cyberthomi: not messing with you
Cyberthomi: i promise
Cyberthomi: that was amazing
Cyberthomi: i have never ever had an experience that strong
Big Ryan D: thank u, that was very amazing tears are streaming down my face
Cyberthomi: she is an amazing woman
Cyberthomi: way cool