Letter to Prince - By Thomasina Kundalini, The Muse

Prince

You know it’s been a while. I wonder how things are for you and if you’ve found somewhat of a normal life. My instincts tell me you are coming to some sort of epiphany in the relationship world. Perhaps things are just a little bit different, and things that entice you are not quite the same. I thought your current was not the right choice, then i thought, ‘i am silly!’ how could i ever know! Every thing’s meant to be ...and i am a lamb, you see. How ridiculous to think i could know. How ridiculous to think it was me.

You were thrown from me, magnetically; from the first time you ever did see me. i remember that night...Dwayne sat in between... I thought to myself, “just see me.” and you turned to holler “What, what?!” I didn’t know you were ‘seeing.’ I could not even breathe. You were just an image i had seen on TV. ‘You’re as fucked up as i am,’ i thought. You heard me in your head! You answered, then continued to ignore me...for about 8 years. Sometimes i thought it was cute. Sometimes i hoped it was unintentional. Either way you know the truth of it is...we have some weird connection.

You have continued to disrupt the every day, at times, with an extra ordinary daze. You are that nymph that literally got away. Probably the only one, i ever really wanted to chase. What have you been up to these days, anyway? I wonder if my future has a similar lay...just dull, in a way. (You know.) Having been there now...in the drugs, in the haze...in that Rock and Roller Hyper Phase. It’s pretty fantastic. It’s pretty fucked up. It’s pretty - any way you look at it, cuz it has such a supple raise. It’s just slightly above the every day...like a veil... and then you get away. Lie it over the molding of life till it shimmers and shines...but like Kudzu...it blocks out the sun., trampling down the under run.

So what is this...the every day? Did i not want to chat with you? Did i not want to say how i feel...about God, to you? Didn’t i tell you? You know i did at the Lounge that day. You shun me now, leaving me wait for the realness that you claim to save. That verse of God that i often graze, but you... you slip away to the otherworld. The Stardom Phase. I know me well enough to know that i have always been a slave...to the lord. To the God you are repelled to face in me. So I call you out, now, P. What will you do? You. I have always said i was in God with you. You are silly.

You can’t live two ways.

I am

right here

today.

- By Thomasina Kundalini