What will it be? - by Thomasina Kundalini

Oct. 24th, 1998

What will it be when it's just you and me?
What will it be? I wonder sometimes.
To have you here, at my side
like i've wanted so long.
I wonder sometimes.

Just to touch your face
or hold your hand -
to be in your grace.
If i will ever bore you.
If it will ever please you.
I dream of being in dreams with you.

I imagine your body
pressed up against me.
The warmth of your hands
as they wrap around me.
I imagine laying so softly
in the morning light
trying not to wake you
just so i can breathe you.
So i can feel you.
Have your presence.

And that these peaceful times should please me...
will you ever understand?
will you let me love you
Just as i am?
Will you let me in?
and go with me when I go in?
I will go in.

I will go in
because that's where i come from.
Within
and i will take you there
to the depth of my soul.
If you want to let go -
To come and go
in the house of my soul.
(I love you.)
I give you there -
the there that's here.
You're the only one that knows there
like only you can know.
There hasn't been another
to be where you are in me
And i never wanted anyone else to be
once i learned who they were to me.

You are my superstar.
More than any glyph or guitar.
I must have been blinded by some...?
But i'm not now. I"m not now.
And i see so clearly
the "way" of us
and i ride so willingly
the "waves" of us.
That they crash into sea...
Oh please, let that be...
That they crash into sea
The waves of you and the waves of me.

My Free-Form.
Your Ocean.
Your rhythm.
My motion.