How I Feel by Thomasina

how i feel (12/5/98)

it just has to be this way i guess.
i told you before
i will be here.
and i will.

I hope our time comes as i miss you already.
you are magik to me
you know that
and i think you always could be
my love

i don't think one can know the pain
without knowing the pleasure
and thus i can not love you
without hurting as i do.

and so you must release me
for you're all i want to do.
i want to see you
i want to breathe you
smell you
taste you
love you
touch you
be good to you like you've never known
but would remember in a heart beat.
your heart beat.
i see you everywhere
in everything
and then i find you no where
when i only want to be with you

and it kills me not to tell you

So i have said a prayer for you
or maybe cast a spell or two
(depending on how you see it).
My only thought is this
that you do with your life what you know is right -
in your heart of hearts and soul of souls.
Because your soul knows
and your heart feels.

i wish you love, light
and blessings in everything

and i will be happy for you, even if your love is not with me.
i love you martin