Feb 25th

How i love the feel of this pen.
This pen – Where could he be?
The girl searches and searches
and still she searches.
Searching with no end.
No end.
Eternity.
For moments i see how i have chosen
to come to this new planet.
To spend time here.
Eternity, and what to do?
Lifetimes just take lifetimes –
but eternity?
Ah yes, eternity.
I watch myself on the outside.
Brief encounters here
passing by, so to speak.
Some would stay longer in this place
for there is much to do here
but i...
I am recalling something unknown.
I’m having a hard time with time zones.
For moments i see myself
as and at every age
at once
the AGES
while pouring laundry soap.

What is this madness?
Can’t i just accept it?
This is the way it is.
Xcept Xcept the Xfiles
GenX

“What’s up?”
”Just fighting again.”
“I could differentiate the voices into separate writings...but the world..”
!!! I worry so much!!! I stop myself when i worry about what the world will think. So who cares if the world doesn’t understand, one day they will. They will.
Saw this alien in the mirror today. A “grey.” How beautiful. Why aren’t they in my book? I’ll add them when i transpose it into the novel, the book i was always meant to write.


“Say hey internet, hey! I’m a huge web geek.”
“I feel better, thank you.”

“Time to sit and rest is needed.”
“He...”
”He, what’s up with that?
Gotta quit with the me, me, me.”
”Should i try to find he...”

Up there, way above, if i can get back there.
I was talking about eternity.
So much more than this mellow drama.
So much more than this man.

So she journeys to this land unknown
and he’s waiting there for her.
Waiting there with love on.
Love in his eyes, his smile, his touch.
Their embrace...
the embrace is like
devil’s food cake.

Spirits spirits round my room.
Floating movements in the corner of my eye,
“Who is it?”
I wonder but i don’t ask why.

Arpana (My guru) said: struggling to understand is not being able to accept what just is. To believe that everything is as it should be at this moment, is to release that struggle to understand. To try to ‘figure something out’ is to pass a judgment, he said, on what just is. Realize that the mystery unfolds before you. its is not a riddle to be solved.
 

- By Thomasina Kundalini