Arpana-
    Where are you?  I feel you with me.  You are strong.  One of the strongest ones i've ever met.  I could see it in you, you could feel it in me.  The kindred.  The lifetimes.
We were shepherds once.  We would meet every now and then and walk and share each other's company.  We exchanged ideas and theories on God in the given trodden fields.
    My shepherd friend, now a guru of the Cali. kind.  You are out there making a difference.  You are out there making waves in the stimulation of mass awareness.  Keep going - you are needed.  Keep loving - you are loved.  I love you.  Maya loves you.  You taught us so much in so little time.
    You studied under Osho Zen in a commune in Tibet.  He taught you great things, now you teach great things.  He named you Arpana...and it was the Osho Tarot which told me you were coming.   It  told me i would meet you long before i did.  You said "in every fear there is a wish" and my brain exploded just that quick.  I just want you to know that i am still missing you and your ponderings... yet, i know that i will see you again someday my guru, my friend.  It is my wish.  
Be well and love kindly, or as you say-  
BIG LOVE!!!!!